All posts by Stippler

I am a self-taught freelance artist, my primary venue is pen and ink in the genre of stippling, or pointillism. I guess it depends on where you're from as to what you call it but I hear different things from different people who say that, "they know" that it's this or that. I just call it mine, because it was funny when I came across the format in the first place. I started working on this piece, it was originally in a be a sketch of a statue that I had bought my now ex-wife, but all of a sudden I started doing these dots around its silhouette and then I filled in the shape of the statues body and I thought I was a genius, be it for a short time. Shortly after that discovery, I still laugh about it today, I saw in the back of a magazine there used to be out but is no longer, called Omni. Now on the back page or so they would always have a unique picture of some sort. This one issue in the back had Domino's laid out and it looks really cool but they were just laying there on this table of some sort but they instructions bottom said to hold the picture approximately 5 feet from your face. In doing so a rendition of, it's been so long, I think Einstein or somebody of a similar stature was on the page. And that was my first realization as to what the dots did. In that picture it showed up close a bunch of Domino's just laying there, squared off to each other not in a disorganized manner but laying there side-by-side and on and site by and however and it turned out to be a portrait of somebody such as Einstein. And then there was somebody there at the store was looking at the magazine that called it stippling or pointillism, or a form of it as being all dots. So that was when I learned of my discovery being not something new but as I researched, was actually something hundreds of thousands of years old. Aside from that I have tried and succeeded I believe and doing some charcoal and pastel. My first and last piece that I had tried to do was of a football player walking off the field carrying his helmet. This piece was done for my daughter in the University of Oklahoma Cowboys colors. It was a pretty good-sized piece and I shipped it to her and her fiancé and unfortunately, maybe six months later they broke up and that was the last I had ever seen of that piece. The rest of me I guess you can learn about on my blog and website where I have my gallery. If I don't post that somewhere else on here all come back and put it in here, the link that is.

Good Morning


I hope everyone is well, I also hope everyone got some sleep and feel well rested.  I would also love to say I feel the same way.  But, if you read my last post all the way through you will see that I have been up all night and the thing that really sucks is among tools that are supposed to make me sleep, well help me sleep.  But I have not even yawned all night, I lay down initially and watched some TV tried to relax and could not.  So I turned on the computer and watched a couple three movies, talked about 2 of them.  And now it is 6:00 AM and I am going to return the coffee maker on and make some breakfast, I am to sweat over this, a bowl of cereal and some oj.  So I will post this and catch up with you later, Ciao.

Japanese Whalers Suck!!!

what’s going on everybody? This is my first day out of the house cleaned it sexually after nine o’clock now, PM that is. Watching Will Wars on animal planet right now, and I am more disappointed I thought I would’ve been because I wasn’t expecting it to come back on this year. Last year Japan said they were going to quit whaling, well in fact the probably never even planned on it but somehow or other they were to obtain over $30 million and added more ships or security so that they could go out and hunt whales, which I believe is absolute and total bullshit. Excuse the profanity, but this is heartbreaking.`

Japanese Whalers Suck!!!

What’s going on everybody? This was my first day out of the house in over the last couple weeks and aside from that last time I was out was when I got home from having my surgery. Right now it’s after nine o’clock. Watching Whale Wars on animal planet right now, and I am more disappointed then I he crossedthought I would’ve been because I wasn’t expecting it to come back on this year. Last year Japan said they were going to quit whaling, well in fact the probably never even planned on it but somehow or other they were to obtain over $30 million and added more ships or security so that they could go out and hunt whales, which I believe is absolute and total bullshit. Excuse the profanity, but this is heartbreaking.

so I am pleading with all of those who are following my blog and I know there’s not many a year now but, hopefully it will increase.

Say it is two in the morning and I have taken about four hours ago my bedtime meds which consists of a soma, a sleeping pill, and my irregular nerve blockers and pain meds. Well to one of the pain meds and his methadone which generally makes you drowsy but for some reason the last few days I’ve been taking my bedtime meds don’t seem to kick in and for I don’t know, last night I had to even get up after about six hours and finally take another sleeping pill and then eventually kicked in. so after laying in bed for a bit and realizing I wasn’t going to sleep I decided to bust out my 35mm and get it cleaned up for tomorrow, I’m sorry make that later today. But today, Saturday is the annual tube float down the Colorado River and  Parker and from what I hear, last year there was more than 6000 people on the water floating on anything from boats to inner tubes or whatever rafts they can get out there and this year it’s supposed to be even worse, maybe not worse but as more people. So I thought I would take my camera and see what I can get developed software that. Before I posted anything ago to get the film developed sorry the 35mm is not digital but once I get the film developed we will see what we have hopefully. I shot about a half a dozen rolls of films already and still have yet to get them developed but after tomorrow on single drop them all off and taking care of, get it going anyway.

Well my friends, it is now 10 after 4 AM and I him no more tired than I am am awake, or is it I am no more awake than I am tired?

So aside from writing in my blog, I just got done watching the movie Monster, now I figure I will watch another movie and this one is called 127 Hours.  I have been putting it off for a couple of weeks since I had seen the previews.  But this is the story of that guy in the head got his arm stuck between Boulder and a bigger rock and had to cut his arm off.  Considering my injuries and what I have been going through for the last four years, I figured this might be appropriate.  Maybe help me get me out of my slump that I have been in. He had just gotten is arm stuck between the bolder and a bigger bolder.  Now it is dark, and now it is daylight, got a lovely movies; I am sorry, but the daylight was a vision he had.

okay, it is now almost 5 o’clock in room be used to discuss where it started to pour down rain and it looks like it does not appear as though easily get much help with filling his water jug.  Water is running pretty good now down the ravine and he got stuck in.  It is actually flooding and he is losing his ear and footing and is underwater now.  Okay, he is dreaming now because his arm is still attached and he made it back to his car and his arm is attached, yet he was dreaming.

okay now it looks like he is going to start cutting his arm, yep..

wow, you just broke free from his forearm and hand after cutting them off, it off.  And he is working his way out of the canyon.  Nice, headfirst into a puddle of money dirty water but probably will not kill him afterwards been through,obviously not.

Awesome movie in the first place and above that is an amazing story.  Now I need to get out from between my two boulders.  One day at a time, one day at a time.

One Step, One Day, Don’t Rush

Well, I think I figured out how to do this in Windows Journal, because every other time I had been in here and tried to work on it, it always wanted you to use a pen and write it like on a tablet. I only have my mouse to use and when I press down on the left button I can write but it is not comfortable and it can barely read what I am writing. I do imagine because I designed one years ago, that there is a pen that you can use with this program and all you have to do is just have a mousepad and metal transfer right onto the screen as your writing. If it is anything like what I designed it should be something pretty cool. But see now, all I have to do is talk and it is getting smarter every day a user and I would like to say the same for me. I am looking at this like getting to know someone. The program needs to learn how I speak and I need to learn how it will understand me to do the commands that I am looking at having done.
Well that looks cool, I did not realize I was able to indent by using the tab key.My shoulders are so tight and sore right now. They are just killing me, I put some magnesium oil on and it is supposed to penetrate deep into your muscles and meet and help it loosen up. This kind of sucks. I do not really know anybody out here, I have met a few people but it is different. There is nowhere to go to socialize unless you are hanging out in a bar or something. Plus I am not in the position to be dating, because I only have anything to offer. I am told I snore, and apparently fairly loud. I do have to admit I have woke myself up before and it is funnier when I am sitting next to somebody but not sleeping and they hear me snoring so heavy it wakes me up instantly and they just start laughing, well that would be my ex girlfriend but he had done that before.
I am still having the vision, one I mentioned the other day that I cannot actually describe because you guys would all hate me and think I am totally sick, but I do not know where this is coming from. But it is not as bad as the other day, I was going through a lot of anxiety and restlessness, and that vision popping up almost that whole week I was down and some more I tried to push it out of my mind, the more frequent it came back. I am having one now but it is because I am describing not yet, but telling you about it basically..

I am going to sign out for now, and I am going to do my homework. I have a few assignments I need to knock out and with my Dragon program working considerably better. I should have the work done fairly quick.

It is now 2:30 PM and is med time, plus get something to eat to take these with. I have a OxyContin and a Percocet along with one vitamin a water retention pill, LOL, a nerve blocker, and I think it is a Protox, or something like that.

I will be back later, Love to all of you.

I actually “sprung up” out of bed this morning

Good morning all, I hope all is well. I think I actually slept pretty good last night, for the first time in a while. Maybe it was the lack of an afternoon nap yesterday, ha ha. But I am not sure why. So I am going to roll with it.

Moderate down a list of what has to be done for school or the next block of classes and pick them off one by one. I am next block is a science class on nutrition, that to which will not be a bad thing. Get my way back under control, hopefully. Not that it is necessarily out of control, but since my injury, I have put on a little bit of weight, width from what I remember, about a month and a half ago, my last pain management Dr. appointment, they weighed me in at a whopping 206 pounds. When I graduated high school. I think I weighed 117 pounds, at least that is what I weighed when I went into boot camp, I did come out weighing about 135 after that, so that was a good positive sign and I was also just nothing but solid rock, like everyone else graduating basic training.

Okay, I am going to start the day off for quick shower and work on my day.

I will be at my desk most of the day, so if you want to chat, just give me a holler.

Oh yeah, if you had read my last post from last night, at the end I was mentioning that my laptop might be spooked, or there is a spook in my room, and whoever it was, was typing on my keyboard and changing characters after I was dictating them into the computer. I know now I am starting to sound crazy, or crazier. But I kid you not, this has never happened before and it was changing words that I was even trying to manually change by retyping them after whatever it was, or for whatever reason awards were changing and letters were being scattered all over the screen. Now, I must admit that I am on some pretty strong narcotics to relieve the pain, or to just take the edge off of the nerve damage that was done under my arm. So there could be a possibility, I was seeing things, so I will not deny that. But I did see what I saw.

okay, now I am hitting the shower. I will be back shortly,

I love you all, (in case I do not make it out of the shower)

Feeling a little better, and that is a good thing

At least I am up and out of bed because I think it was last Tuesday when I laid down and I actually got up yesterday started moving around and today I feel a lot better. Considering where I was at yesterday. Found this great new bands I do not remember how, but they are called “Young the Giant” and I primarily listen the country hundred percent except on my DirecTV box, that is, Channel 856 I believe in is called New Age, and I think actually it is called Sonic Tap. But they have got amazing music on that station and then finding these guys on the Internet this morning like I said I do not remember how, but I just did there their genres of music and their rhythm, I think they sound great.

Next figure out why this keeps happening, only going along okay for about 4 to 6 weeks maybe. And all of a sudden I and the sleeping or not sleeping, but I am in bed for a week, I choose not to eat and I do not take my pills that I am supposed to. I take 10 different pills within the day, some of them or once a day and some of them are four times a day. I did notice though, that if I am out in the evening, there are mosquitoes, they will not bite me because my blood is too toxic for them, ha ha. At least I am joking now and I am in better spirits, because I have had spirits, but I just am.

I have really been thinking about getting back into my artwork, and I mean in the hard and I have been having these visions of some amazing stuff, but it is a matter of getting it put together to produce it or them or what ever. I have also been having another vision and this one’s not really cool at all. I am not going to describe it, but his vision has been making me ill at the thought of it and I do not know where in the hell it came from, so that is all you need to know about that. I did have a couple of dreams. While I was awake, almost like a flashback. I guess you would say if you are awake, and that was when the mirror went through my arm. I have been going over and over in my head as to how that had happened on that dreadful day of 07/22/2008, that ripped my world apart.

I got involved with building and installing cabinets into kitchens, bathrooms and building entertainment centers and putting it all together and everything from a mobile home to 6000 foot single-family dwellings where we put in a 10 foot oak entertainment centers and vanities and the TV behind the mirror, and huge desks and having a solid wood top where you cannot even see the seams turning the corners, that was how flawless my team was. It took me a lot of years to find something that I truly love and to have it ripped away from me in the blink of an eye.

So over the next six months after the injury, I lost everything, the house I had been living in was beautiful, gone. The guys I have worked with had to work so they went elsewhere because I could not do anything. Construction business is brutal in the first the place, then one gets into a position where one cannot even pick up a sheet of plywood or even pick up a basic 20 ounce framing hammer, let alone get into the finer details of the actual finish work.

Well, I think I am done the dictating for now, I think my Dragon is tired because it is slacking on a number of commands. So I am going to turn her off, yes I have been married three times I know how to do that, ha ha. After about a half an hour I will turn her back on, after three divorces, maybe I do not know how to do that. 

Thank you for listening, you are all I have two talk to, so I Love You and we will talk more later.



A Day That All Your Wishes May Come True

happy Mother’s Day to all my friends and family, I wish only the best for you on this cherished day of yours. Shall you be treated as you desire, loved and pampered as you are deserved. May your offspring worship you even more on this day and abide by your calling. Shall your mate beckin you at your every command. one final wish for you on this day and that is to just enjoy and not stress it, I hope your loved ones and family adheres to my wish…