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WOW, the dam dog looks real. that degree of artwork should be somewhere else other than the Goodwill, now they could really benefit with a large purchase of this dog. ūüėČ ūüėČ


This is one of our faithful friends. He likes to just hang out with us behind the counter.

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A Very Unusual Night of Sleep

In the name God and the Holy spirit, I wish I had gone to bed last night? ¬†I ended falling, and I use that phrase in a literal sense. I somehow fell, along with my chair over three times in the same night/this morning. I have no idea as to how but I remember just starting to tip forward and thought it was a dream, because I was dreaming that I was on a boat and it rocked forward and the next thing I know, I’m falling forward with my chair. I knocked over a number of things in doing so to. I do not recall what time it was, for either of the three actually, but I do know I should’ve gone to bed after the first one.

I have been trying to get my meds refilled for the last week the company called, PMSI who mails either by FedEx or standard mail my prescription and I was on the phone with them yesterday a couple of times trying to figure out where my meds were at and then I get a call from them today saying that the insurance company use denying refill some prescriptions because it was written by a non-authorized signature. So my next call went to the doctor’s office and they said that they would call the insurance adjuster and my next: to my attorney and I filled him in on what was going on and they said that they were going to call the adjuster also.

You know, it just does not makes sense. I have been on this medication or at least three years except for one of only which would be the newest pain meds called NUCYNTA ER TAB 200mg. This I’ve been taking for the last two or three months as an extended release pain medication, adding of getting one of the side effects that I am out of the actual benefit of pain relief. Now actually I will admit that since being on this pill the overall pain has reduced some, now I would say this is about a seven on a scale of 10.

One thing I do know sure is something I am taking it is definitely causing memory loss. Her blocks of time in situations I’ve been told that have happened and I have no recollection of any of that and that is not a good thing.

On another document, I’m going to write out a leather that will be addressed to everyone handling my case. When I first went to see Mr. Flickinger to handle my case, he had asked which was my dominant hand, typically that would be my right-hand because that is the one I write with. But in all honesty, my left hand does all the work so that my right hand can do whatever. For example, if I’m going to put something away in the refrigerator or in the dishwasher I am going to hold it with my right hand and I have opened the door to the refrigerator or the dishwasher and you are right that in whatever way. Well the problem I have with my left hand is that I cannot open the refrigerator all of the time and I still cannot after 4+ years open the door to a dishwasher with my left hand.

This is my story that I’m going to tell my attorney and my doctors with an extra copy to the adjuster. So until later I will be working on that and I will post a copy of it here on my blog so I can get some other input.

Love you guys and thank you for your support, it helps a lot, and actually more than you can think.



This I took while the doctors were trying to determine their course of action for me, which too them another two days to operate and close it up, then it looked like this…………….


Still going, as best I can today

These past few days have been just added tick marks going by on my calendar life and recovery. I need to get up and moving earlier in the day than I have been, but today I can at least say I am up and taking care of stuff, for example; yesterday I received my absentee ballot or this year’s election and I am just about to fill it out. No, I am not going to tell you who and what I’m doing this year. Nobody looks good for anything, we have a presidential election, state Sen., Congressman, state representative, corporate Commissioner, and it just goes on and on down the line. I may put a couple of wright-in in here.

Well that was fun and done. I love voting this way, I don’t have to go anywhere, I can research more information if I need to. I got the ballot yesterday and did it today, at my leisure.

let me know if you can play this song when you click on the link below;
it is interesting to say the least. Lasts over 5 min’s but entertaining, and faster than I would have thought for the category.

Dammit, I have had a “kink” in my neck since early this morning, like 12/13 hours ago. I “blew-up” on a friends Facebook timeline earlier today and I wasn’t happy about it afterward. She posted something positive on her FB page and I was right there, right along with it and thinking positively, then I moved my hand and it all came back at me like a wave. No I cannot go back, I know this. I also know and am fully aware of the fact that my arm will never be the same and I will not be able to things the way I did them before, I will have to experiment and try to do things in an alternate way. What things?, I use my left arm for everything, but because I write with my right hand, the law says that my dominant hand is my right. That is bullshit, especially now. most of what you are reading here, is not only typed, but dictated by a software program I have on my computer. More than 80% of what I write on my computer is dictated. ¬†I use my right hand to hold onto a glass and from that point I am unable to even open up a refrigerator with my left hand most of the time because of the vacuum when the door shuts, and the one that’s most difficult is the dishwasher. ¬†How many of you out there that are reading this old and will plate or any sort of fish that needs to go into the dishwasher and have the ability to do it with one hand? ¬†About the best way I can have somebody go through a series of tasks that word even compare to what I have to do is if you were to take a golf ball or a roll of coins and put them in the palm of your non-writing and, you non-dominant hand and take the clients of the golf ball in your palm and leaving your fingertips and your bum exposed so that you still got limited movement. ¬†Now unless you want to put your hand underneath the car and have somebody roll up and on to the top of it I cannot help you with the amount of pain that goes through my fingers trying to do these tasks, but go through these little steps if you can. ¬†Try opening the dishwasher, a doorknob that maybe a little stiffer than most, hold on to a bar of soap, if you have a very mechanical window in your car, by rolling it down. Open up a dryer door, open up a bottle of water, the list can go on and on and on about the uses I would have with my left hand before I would begin to use my right.

Enough of that, is 10 o’clock and I’m getting tired and I have a lot to do tomorrow. ¬†I hope I didn’t bore you too much with my last paragraph, I just want the pain to go away. ¬†I could care less if I ever have my hand again, even if it was a stump I would be better off than having to do with this pain.

God speed

after midnight and not quite one o’clock

before you read any further, there are some photos here that are from a work injury but our mementos ¬†to me from when my life had changed completely. they are not self-inflicted other than the fact that it was from a work injury, and I took the pictures when I had the opportunity. ¬†So you may,if you want to anyway review them before showing them to others. ¬†Most people don’t mind them, because maybe they had seen worse.


It has been several days since my last post, and it has actually been several days of since I’ve done anything really. ¬†Was out about Friday mostly because I had a physical therapy appointment. ¬†I blew off two appointments today that I should have gone to I just don’t feel like I’m rested when I wake up in the mornings. ¬†Now I’m not always up at this hour, but I do at times stay up this late or later if not all all nighters. ¬†I posted a couple of pictures on my Facebook page today, rather yesterday, of my arm, my injury from over four years ago. ¬†Don’t worry, I won’t leave you out, in fact in this first photo; this is where they finally got the artery to stop bleeding. ¬†I still have to clean my hand which was fine of event I can not move my fingers at this point.


in this following picture you will see what actually happened from the accident. ¬†Yes it’s real and I’ve had people tell me, not that photo was fake. ¬†But I assure you that it is 100% real and believe me I wish it was not.


this is what it looked like a week and a half later.  The doctors waited from Tuesday until Friday to operate and this is what they did the following Friday they took the bandages off and this is what it looked like.  I wish I could say it was over then and I went back to work and everything was hunky-dory just like any other time.  Continue on,,,,,,


I know, these pictures are not exactly what you send home to your mother on a holiday. ¬†But this is one of them going through or over four years. ¬†I lost everything monetarily that meant anything to me, For example my household furnishings, which took like everybody else knows years to build up.I’ve had to move in with family and I thank God for their support.

I have no idea when my case with the insurance company will settle, but I just hope the compensation is worth it because the time I’ve lost, and the life of lost is irreplaceable. ¬†Once in my life I finally found a job that I loved waking up to and going to every morning and then this happens. ¬†Whatever this was and is I would not wish it upon anybody.

So my friend, Superman, if you read this and I hope you do, not that this is an excuse for my medical errors the other day but I use a voice dictation program and I do not always catch the errors it makes when dictating now if I was to be writing this as an actual printed publication in a biography to clean it up at that time, I just asked that if you’re in a critique my grammatical errors, wait until I’m making money off of my writings, ha ha, but thank you my friend.

I have just started receiving some additional financial help which wasn’t there when I really needed it but it is there now. ¬†I hope you have all seen my artwork, and I also hope that following that. ¬†Or new additions anyway from photo to whatever else I can put together when I’m in the mood for it.

I hope to talk to you soon, I appreciate each and every one of you and if you have any questions, feel free to ask.  In the last four and half years there has probably not been a question I have not been asked regarding my arm.

So until next time, hugs kisses and, Ciao

A very interesting last few days

Over the last four years I have lost more control over certain things that are basic for everyone else, it seemed like it was one thing after another if not twice that, and that alone compounded not just by a year after year, or month after month, but it was day after day where I literally had no control.

In one aspect, I have just regained the control that put the most burden on me, but I am nowhere near being able to reach the top of the other issues that I have been having to deal with for 4 1/2 years. 

I am still going through physical therapy and whether it is actually helping or not, I would say it is but we have a long ways to go. ¬†I have already made mention to the therapist that is working with me that this is what I had been asking for for the last three years; this facility is using such different tools for me to work my hand and this should have been done a long time ago. ¬†Even during my implant stage I should’ve been going through this particular type of physical therapy. ¬†I hurt like hell when I’m finished because of the fatigue that had been put on my hand and fingers and my wrist and even into my forearm. ¬†The fatigue wears off fairly quick and the pain continues to take over and is even there during the fatigue because it hurts so bad. ¬†Unfortunately the insurance company only authorized for 12 sessions. ¬†One thing I don’t think they realize though is the fact that one of his 12 sessions, and that would be the first session; is my initial consultation and no treatment is given. I believe additional sessions would definitely help, but it still may not get me to where I need to be.

Another problem I have been having over the last few months and I have still got no word on any kind of a referral and ironing board and more pain every day. ¬†Because of the narcotics I have been taking for, four and a half years, has caused an will problem my mouth and causes what is called “dry mouth”. a few months ago I was at Ireland’s restaurant in Palm Desert and that one of my final bites of my meal, I had been down on something very hard and it cracked one of my molars and chipped part of the tooth. ¬†Short time after that, I don’t recall what I was eating but I had shipped another tooth but on the left side, and violated the first one was on the right side. ¬†Then another time shortly after that, the upper left side chipped also and this one was so sharp where it ¬†chipped and instantly began cutting my tongue even worse than the other two had been during. ¬†But over the last couple weeks, the first cracked his on my right side feels like it had cracked even further down into my jaw and that pain is such an ache that I can’t even think straight on top of the other reasons I can’t think straight anymore. ¬†At least once a day I’d take two aspirin and let them rest on the inside of my lower right cheek and just let them dissolve and oddly enough that has relieved some pain in my jaw but it is nowhere near anything long-term. ¬†I’ve called my attorney about three or four times find out about the status of getting a release checked out an approved for some work to be done to fix them but I have yet to hear anything positive. Hopefully soon I will hear something but I will call my attorney again tomorrow and see if she’s heard anything from the insurance company.

New topic, earlier this evening or I should say last night, one of our dogs were barking like crazy then another one of them started to follow suit; and she has a louder bark. ¬†So I went out to take a look at what they were barking at and I didn’t see anything but I went outside the gate and kept the dogs in the yard in case they were excited and decided to run off after whatever they thought they saw. ¬†I walked around for a minute or two and I saw no one or anything and I came back to the gate. ¬†I used my left hand to hold on to the stable or fixed portion of the gate while my right hand was pulling him close and somehow or another my left thumb nail got caught underneath something on the fence and I didn’t notice it until I pulled my hand away. ¬†My fingernails are sure so there’s no reason for them to really get caught on anything but somehow it did and when I walked away it twisted and that hurt beyond belief, granted right now it doesn’t hurt, and I hope it stays that way. ¬†That pain was so unbelievable and I ended up coming in the house and taking more pain meds, actually I took my bedtime meds and that was only about an hour if that after I had already taken my dinner meds so you would think I’d be asleep right now with all the crap they keep pumping into me.

I am going to write another post, possibly a couple because it’s about two different people, maybe even a third because of the third person.

Until next time thank you for your time,

my love to all of you and my deepest respect